After All

    So here I  am again.  This is my 4th  attempt at this  blog.  In my life, and this blog, I am trying to find balance. First off, I am a big believer in happy pills, especially for those of us dealing depression from any source. I get lots of mine courtesy of my Lupus and Fibro-Myalgia. I also believe in therapy, and changes. I am also an Irish Catholic, who does not follow all the rules, but most of them are part of my life. If any of this offends you, I wish you Godspeed and no offense taken. (You'll note, no matter what  I wish you Godspeed.)  I have  been  a  member of   Al-Anon  for  about 10 months,  a self esteem  group for about 3 months, and am  finally figuring me out. 

   My sons are awesome, both  2 legged and 4 legged. I am trying to survive being on the school board at their school, I  love reality TV, tulips, and laughing. I am pretty sarcastic, my family can drive me nuts, but I adore them. I have some friends who are considered family, and they have known me longer than I care to admit. 

   In an ideal world I would be described as a zaftig typical Irish girl. (And because I love the word zaftig.) But in this world, I am just a Mom trying to survive Lupus and my sons boyhoods. I am not into bugs or battles so some days it is tough. I cherish girl time, as I rarely get any.

   I am speaking at Lupus Advocacy Day in DC next week and I am doing anything I can to delay finished my speech. Re-starting this blog on more secure ground is much more important. My youngest has an ear infection right now, so he has been hyper with the meds. I  have  been having big issues with my meds. I seem to be dealing with headaches and a bad stomach due to all the pain meds. The good news is I am sleeping a lot. Actually, all I want to do is sleep. Of course, the anti-nausea meds make me tired, but the last few days I am just nap happy. 

   I have promised myself to clean the house and get caught up on laundry tonight. I should invite my mother to dinner so I am forced to clean up, but I am not that determined. I am  thinking  more of  an early dinner of  easy stuff. And then wondering around on my yoga pants doing some laundry and cleaning when the spirit moves me. 

   So here we go again. To anyone who has stuck with me through the other 2 previous accessible blogs, and the private one was a waste, thanks for hanging around. Let's hope this one is fun, and real, and a place you like.